my life opens out
into a deep and glowing silence.
i break through the wraths of light,
one after the other, forever faster.
now the silence wraps me in its material heat,
thicker and thicker, warmer and warmer,
as i melt into the eternal.
everything becomes lighter.
i am no more.
everything brings me back to who i am.
i have everything to do.
i feel. i see. i touch.
i hate myself.
my inner being stands up in front of me.
it stares at me. it’s me. i stare at it.
i look myself staring at myself.