language or the kiss (live) lyrics – indigo girls

i don’t know if it was real or in a dream
lately waking up, i’m not sure where i’ve been
there was a table set for six and five were there
i stood outside and kept my eyes upon that empty chair

and there was steam on the windows from the kitchen
and laughter like the language i once spoke with ease
but i’m made mute by the virtue of decision
i choose most of your life goes on without me

oh, the fear i’ve known
that i might reap the praise of strangers
and end up on my own
all i’ve sown was a song but maybe i was wrong

i said to you the one gift i’d adore
is the package of the next ten years unfolding
but you told me if i had my way i’d be bored, i’d be bored
and i knew i loved you best born of your scolding

when we last talked, we were lying on our backs
looking at the sky through the ceiling
i used to lie like that alone, out on the driveway
’cause i was trying to read the greek upon the stars
the alphabet of feeling

oh, i knew back then, it was a calling
that said, “if joy, then pain”
the sound of the voice these years later
is still the same

i am alone in a hotel room tonight
i squeeze the sky out but there’s not a star appears
begin my studies with this paper and this pencil
and i’m working through the grammar of my fears

oh mercy, what i won’t give
to have the things that mean the most
not to mean the things i miss
unforgiving, choice still is
the language or the kiss, yes, it is

/ indigo girls lyrics